I dealt with more personal challenges last year than I have ever had to deal with in one year- some of which I have resolved and a few that still linger (and need to stay in 2008).
Last year began in chaos and drama. My personal life became public in a very harsh and violent way. And from that moment - everything seemed to follow suit. Every lesson I was supposed to learn was thrust at me in the worst way possible.
And of course, what starts bad usually ends bad.
The last few days of 2008 presented a new set of challenges that forced me to face the fact that things have to change.
2009 came in silently. ( I was asleep by 11pm December 31, 2008)
And I spent the following 3 days at home - alone.
I read, watched movies and tried my hardest to forget about the not-so-thrilling phone call that I got just before the new year.
I have since remained quiet - not withdrawn or depressed, just - quiet -
Yesterday I chose to get out of the black hole that my social life has become, and I met up with the lovely Tricia for early breakfast at Le Petit Dejeuner. We talked about all the things that are "soooooo 2008" and how we will improve and progress as we move deeper into 2009.
Our breakfast chat continued over to my place where we chatted and laughed about boys and music (as usual) until the sun disappeared.
Talking to Tricia was like a breath of fresh, unbiased, salt-free air. She reminded me that I'm not alone. That letting go of toxic relationships/friendships are necessary... and with a little strength and a little frankincense and myrrh - we can rid our lives of anything that doesn't belong.
So 2009 - that is what will happen. I will correct the things that 2008 brought to light.
I will be stronger
I will stop fighting maturity
I will focus on myself for the first time
And when all else fails ... burn a little frankincense and myrrh
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